I really hope I pass psychology with a B if not an A. I don’t want to settle for a C in any class.. remind me to bust my ass off whenever you get the chance please? I have an essay due on Monday.. it’s our last take-home essay and I really want to do good on it. :( Pray for me?!

I’m not a bitch when you first meet me but if you’re those type of people I don’t get along with, fuck.. I’m so good at being a bitch that you won’t even know I’m dissing you.

i can tell my gramma doesnt like my bro hanging round me much cus i’m a bad influence.. not bad but not ideal for her.. i stay up late play games laugh all the time.. i’m loud and noisy and sometimes sloppy.. but i’m a good person! tell him not to do drugs n sometimes help with hw. meh. i guess i dont know how to not be myself round my family. if he grows up messed up or something.. which i doubt cus he’s already grown up!.. then everyone will blame me but if he grows up great n caring etc etc which he already is, then there will be no credit for me, haha.

I realized I don’t have that many pictures of anyone from high school. If you have any laying around of yourself with people from school or with me, can I have it?! I’ll show you why if you come to my house.. if you dare!

But serious, I want a couple pictures. I feel like I am missing a part of my life because I have no pictures to prove it happened! Just memories! And memories are always better relived in pictures.

Please let me know. It’ll be your ticket to my room.. in a non-sexual way.. maybe.. just kidding.. but really..

ibought this journal thingy with blank pages (no lines) when jared was here.. i told him i had a million journals n thought i wouldnt finish this one but im actually writing in it. but theres this thing i do. like every nite b4 bed i write what im thankful for today :) it helps me remember things since my memory sux and helps me be thankful! and gives me some closure tonight n finds some things to smile about. like, i think of all the good stuff so instead of having a bad day im hopeful for ag ood day tmro or see that today wasnt that bad after all.. cus i still got my fam and whats important to me :) anyway just wanted to share!

people like my sister who has her life filled with drama watch drama filled tv shows. what the fuck? is there not a clear correlation..

watching pretty girls date ass holes who they know are ass holes make me wanna pull my hair out. how stupid do you have to be? how low does your self esteem have to be that you allow these idiots to disrespect you over and over? christ dude, if you’re a pretty girl don’t prove me right by being a complete idiot.

what happened to all the strong women in the world? why aren’t they on tv.

hey you txtd me a few days ago =( did you need something whats up?

i realized i started doing alot without my parents permission.. but i’m not so irresponsible that i wouldn’t even let them know. i painted my room twice now, something as a kid i would never be able to even dream of doing because, god knows why, my parents wouldnt let me. it feels good though. it feels good knowing i’m starting to have a little more control of what is around me. i like it.

i mean i like people who know who they are and what they want and stand for whatever they stand for. like, they’re strong willed hard headed independent speaks loud and clear, makes sure they’re understood. but i don’t like it when those people are closed minded.. you can be all those things, go for it, i’m happy for you, really, but once you start brushing off conversations because you don’t believe in this or that or don’t want to talk about this or that because it’s not what you’re all about, then fuck. fuck you.