I know why I have so many fucking daddy issues. It’s because my dad is the exact opposite of who I want to be. I don’t ever want to be closed-minded and shallow. I don’t ever want to think my word is the word and everything revolves around me. I don’t see people as objects. I see people as caring and capable of anything with the right nurturing.. I don’t want to see my own life partner as nothing more than a baby sitter. I don’t want to think once a week is enough to be a parent. I don’t think money can buy love. I would never think it’s OK to put my kids down about anything.. I would never have my mind set on something and disregard anything else. I would never fucking tell my kid that her decision for major is not good enough.
Psychology is my major because I want to know how I could have turned out so fucked up.. and how to fix myself new. It’s my major because I want to know how to raise a kid the right way, how to treat people the right way and how to make sure nothing in my childhood is repeated. I want my sister to stop suppressing all her feelings. I want my mom not to feel so shitty because my dad tells her she didn’t raise us right.
Want to hear a joke about my vagina? Actually, nevermind you won’t get it.
I like talking to strangers and feeling completely open like I do. I learn a little bit about myself each time I meet someone new. I’ve also learned from someone wise that I can’t judge people or generalize them because they’re the way they are because they are who they are!
I’ve also learned today that I am not where I’m not, and I have to be where I am. ^____^
I don’t like how people don’t have respect for their elders. I’m not just talking about parents and grand parents, but teachers. I don’t like how people also don’t watch their language around kids… I don’t like how the Internet makes people feel like they don’t have to be polite.
I don’t like where any of this is going! :(
today was a good day over all.. i like my classes, i sold back an old text book, i bought most of my new ones. i finally saw the face of my sisters boyfriend, i made my other sisters friend laugh ^___^ i think she was having a bad day. i was friendly to lots of people. i met new people like maribelle and deandra and genie. god forbid they find my tumblr n get mad i butchered their names, haha. i saw brian and kim and miguel and einar. i had a yummy drink and m&ms. i came home to the package i’ve been waiting for. man! see, all you need is a smile and everything else kinda just falls in place.. and i got plenny of those!
I’m going to try harder this year, ^_____^!
I don’t need any more routines on top of the ones that I already have. I like things to be different and interesting. If something is continuous and lasting, I don’t think I can handle it! I’ll go crazy. It’s like, things begin to get so boring and then I can’t focus. I guess this mostly applies to school. After like the first week of school, I begin to fall back because I’m tired of things being so routine. Wake up, go to school, come home. I hope this semester something will be different.
I usually don’t like following series because I get really sad when they end :(